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sorry for the long text. But I thought I'd start from the beginning and describe a current situation in a bit more detail. Maybe it doesn't sound that bad, but the suffering has been there for a bit longer.
I am currently feeling very uncomfortable again with my employer, where I have been working since April 2019. So, I came there in April 2019 through a staffing agency and was taken on permanently in October 2020.
I was supposed to document the work instructions for an area there, some of which did not exist until then. In retrospect, the training did not go as expected. In addition, I was not really welcomed with open arms. At least that's how I felt. But in my creative way, I was able to familiarize myself quite well. Last year, I was supposed to get support because I had way too much work for one person. To be honest, I was not very enthusiastic about the idea. I was not very enthusiastic about the idea, because when I started to work I assumed that I would be doing this job alone. I have worked out a complex system of work and find it difficult to train someone in this complex tangle that has grown historically. The first person hired turned out to be a loser and was fired after 3 months. On the 2nd attempt, a young employee was brought in from another team. She is a career changer and comes from a completely different area. That was almost a year ago. There were many misunderstandings because my supervisor communicated unclearly. But even so, there was a bad atmosphere between the colleague and me at the beginning. Since the beginning of the year, we have been sitting together in one office. The supervisor's assistant also sits in the room. From February until around Easter, I changed my orientation strategy and worked very intensively with the new colleague. Things went well then. But when I came back from Easter vacation, it became more difficult again. Unfortunately, I was absent for 6 weeks in mid-May due to an accident at work.
When I came back from the 6 week absence the situation actually didn't get worse. But I had a tantrum in front of my supervisor who praised my new colleague for banalities and criticized my work with a funny comment. He, or rather a colleague, had found an error in my work instructions, which in reality was not one after all on closer inspection. Last week, there was a joint breakfast with my supervisor, the assistant and the new colleague. Before this breakfast, my new colleague said that I had an idea how we could solve a problem she had. She said that we had already discussed it yesterday in the meeting and that it wouldn't work that way. But she said that in such a condescending way that I immediately lost it and said, "Then I won't say anything next time." She said that she had spoken to me normally and that I didn't need to react like that and that we were a team. "We are a team?" I asked. "But I don't notice anything about that. And you haven't asked me anything for some time now." Then, when breakfast was over and my supervisor had already left breakfast, the three of us went to the coffee kitchen to make some tea. And whispered the new colleague with the assistant. And I'm pretty sure they were whispering about me. There are many situations like that. Maybe I overreacted. But it's been a few days now and I don't feel like going to work at all. The two colleagues have conspired against me. I would love to quit. I already wrote an application the other day, but unfortunately received a rejection. I am at the end of my tether and can't go on. I don't feel like doing anything anymore and I don't want to talk to anyone. I will work from the home office for the next few days and hope that I can calm down to some extent. Am I overreacting?
Or what can I do here?
sorry for the long text. But I thought I'd start from the beginning and describe a current situation in a bit more detail. Maybe it doesn't sound that bad, but the suffering has been there for a bit longer.
I am currently feeling very uncomfortable again with my employer, where I have been working since April 2019. So, I came there in April 2019 through a staffing agency and was taken on permanently in October 2020.
I was supposed to document the work instructions for an area there, some of which did not exist until then. In retrospect, the training did not go as expected. In addition, I was not really welcomed with open arms. At least that's how I felt. But in my creative way, I was able to familiarize myself quite well. Last year, I was supposed to get support because I had way too much work for one person. To be honest, I was not very enthusiastic about the idea. I was not very enthusiastic about the idea, because when I started to work I assumed that I would be doing this job alone. I have worked out a complex system of work and find it difficult to train someone in this complex tangle that has grown historically. The first person hired turned out to be a loser and was fired after 3 months. On the 2nd attempt, a young employee was brought in from another team. She is a career changer and comes from a completely different area. That was almost a year ago. There were many misunderstandings because my supervisor communicated unclearly. But even so, there was a bad atmosphere between the colleague and me at the beginning. Since the beginning of the year, we have been sitting together in one office. The supervisor's assistant also sits in the room. From February until around Easter, I changed my orientation strategy and worked very intensively with the new colleague. Things went well then. But when I came back from Easter vacation, it became more difficult again. Unfortunately, I was absent for 6 weeks in mid-May due to an accident at work.
When I came back from the 6 week absence the situation actually didn't get worse. But I had a tantrum in front of my supervisor who praised my new colleague for banalities and criticized my work with a funny comment. He, or rather a colleague, had found an error in my work instructions, which in reality was not one after all on closer inspection. Last week, there was a joint breakfast with my supervisor, the assistant and the new colleague. Before this breakfast, my new colleague said that I had an idea how we could solve a problem she had. She said that we had already discussed it yesterday in the meeting and that it wouldn't work that way. But she said that in such a condescending way that I immediately lost it and said, "Then I won't say anything next time." She said that she had spoken to me normally and that I didn't need to react like that and that we were a team. "We are a team?" I asked. "But I don't notice anything about that. And you haven't asked me anything for some time now." Then, when breakfast was over and my supervisor had already left breakfast, the three of us went to the coffee kitchen to make some tea. And whispered the new colleague with the assistant. And I'm pretty sure they were whispering about me. There are many situations like that. Maybe I overreacted. But it's been a few days now and I don't feel like going to work at all. The two colleagues have conspired against me. I would love to quit. I already wrote an application the other day, but unfortunately received a rejection. I am at the end of my tether and can't go on. I don't feel like doing anything anymore and I don't want to talk to anyone. I will work from the home office for the next few days and hope that I can calm down to some extent. Am I overreacting?
Or what can I do here?
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